Could the madness be coming to an end?

It is now April 15. It was around Feb. 20 that we had to move out of the castle. So after 2 months we have come full circle and will move back to the castle over the weekend. It was a very long and hard two months. I have never been knocked down so many times. Every turn we made we ran into an on-coming train. The experience reminded me much of our experience with infertility. We would be hopeful that we found something, have to wait for the answer only to be disappointed that it wasn't going to work out. And then finally we found a house and after 2 weeks of negotiating, it fell through and we lost it.

I have mixed feelings about going back. I was ready to move on. We had packed many of our belongs and the emotional ties we had were gone and replaced with anger. Larry and I both kept looking for the lesson to be learned out of this. We always figure God is trying to teach us something. But we just couldn't and still really can't figure it out. Larry was listening to Joel Osteen and as usual his message hit home. He says sometimes God uses us to teach others lessons. So we started to think about how our problem might have helped someone else. We came up with a few ideas. It still doesn't make the situation sting any less, but we are hanging on to the idea that somewhere someone benefited from our trials.

I hope to settle in soon and I look forward to having a reliable internet connection and telephone again. I miss keeping in touch with family and friends and hope to be back on track soon.

Joel also gave us some other food for thought. He says, "Bloom where you are planted." I figure we are obviously planted in Geyen for the next year so I will do my best to bloom like the tulips at the Keukenhof Gardens.